#Time for college to swallow me again gg

[uwumeidotcom]

Not dead just bi

Back again from my grave 😎😎 lets just say... Genshin impact is my new hyperfixation. I utterly adore and love genshin so so much, soo I wouldnt expect too much persona art anymore? P5s will prolly kick off a persona 5 drawing spree tho!! ❤💗💓💕💖

Also ty 2 any who is still here lmao

[smokinholsters]

The Lucky Horseshoes - A Heartland Season 16 AU - Chapter 9

Chapter 9

A few seconds later Amy raised her arms around Finn’s neck. As the kiss ended Finn kept his hands on Amy’s waist, her left arm dropped to his chest and her right lingered on his cheek. She could not take her eyes off his.

“Good answer ?” Finn whispered.

Amy sighed as her right hand moved to his chest as well “very good answer.”

Neither moved but Amy smiled when Katie’s so what giggly voice came through from the open kitchen window breaking the mood “errr, sorry Amy, again, GG needs the platter.”

“On the way Katie !!” Amy called out reaching for the large plate.

Lyndy chose between them so they sat that way. Jack and Tim at the ends, Amy and Lisa across from each other with Lyndy next to Amy, then Finn and Jessica who sat across from Lou and to her left Katie and Peter.

It was Peter who asked the question which made most of them laugh “So Finn, how does one decide to be a farrier, I mean is there a school ?”

Hearing the laughter Peter smiled “I’m sorry did you all go through this already ?”

Finn nodded and swallowed “I did so I’ll give you the condensed  version.” And without waiting for a real response ran through college, his part time work, apprenticeship, school and partnership.

“College and farrier school is an interesting path.”

“It is Lou, mom’s a teacher, there was no getting out of college. To be fair, farrier came along in college. This is a great steak Jack, you folks raise some fine beef.”

Jack smiled “well thank you Finn, we’d like to think so.”

“Maybe Amy could take me out to see the herd one day, I’ve done that too in a pinch. Rope, pull fence, cut, vaccinate, some of everything. No rodeoing though, I’m more a jack of all trades, master of just a few.”

“So the center officially opens tomorrow Amy, nervous ?”

Amy nodded “Excited and terrified dad, Clint’s around for a few weeks which helps but how the kids react to me and the program is all up in the air.”

“Well, it’ll probably be rocky to start with but you’ll do great, they’ll love you ?” Finn said looking over. “I have faith in the, mirac, ooops, in you Amy.”

“It’s nice to know, besides, you Caleb and Jade will be along to help through the day which will be great.”

“Horses ?”

“We’ll have 5 to start, Spartan, Shadow, Trouble and Checkers of ours and Night courtesy of Finn. Caleb’s picking up 8 horses on Wednesday for the kids. We’ll officially start on them on Thursday.”

“Saddles and all that ?”

“We’re working on it, I think we’ll have about a dozen useable western saddles by Friday, all donated. Smithbilt is sending their truck by on Thursday afternoon and fitting the kids with hats as a donation. Clint went in to speak with them a few weeks ago about a discount and they donated instead, they’re a great bunch and loved the idea of the center. We’re working on boots but the kids all have sturdy shoes and cowboy boots aren’t for everyone. The embroidery shop is donating two dozen center caps, I think we’re good for now.”

“Well, if you need some help wrangling I can free up some time.”

“Thank you Grandpa.”

“Count me in on that too.”

“Thanks Dad.”

“And you Finn, what’s your connection to the center ?”

“For starters I’ll be teaching the kids how to care for horses from the leg down. We’re trained to spot a lot even though hoofs are our specialty. Sort of like barber school teaches them to spot irregularities, medical issues on the scalp, something no one else might notice like skin cancer covered up by hair. I’ll be able to help with the rescues and hopefully I might get an apprentice or two along the way, teach the trade and pass it on.”

“And be near Amy.”

“That certainly a perk Katie.”

“I like the passing it on part.” Jack agreed

Finn nodded “so do I and the truth is it made me a better farrier working with an experienced one, there are tips and tricks you learn from a seasoned pro that you never get in school.”

When dinner wound down Lisa was adamant that Amy not help as she had a guest and insisted that she and Finn head outside onto the porch and that she’d put up a fresh pot of coffee.

“Go enjoy the evening Amy, Jess and I’ll get the dishes.”

They both insisted on at least helping to clear along with everyone else before heading outside with Lyndy and Katie to start and joined soon enough by Jack, Tim, Peter and Lou who was also shooed away.

“Looks like we should get a few more chairs out here.”

“Finn and I’ll fetch the bench from around the other side Grandpa, it’s fine though a swing for two would be nice.”

Jack laughed “We had one years ago, it squeaked in the wind which was fine but it was off key and drove your grandmother crazy. It’s buried in the Quonset, I’ll look for it during the week.”

“We can probably figure a way to lock it in place when it’s windy Jack, how complicated could it be ?” Finn said backing up with the bench they had fetched.

Katie sat down on the top step and stretched her legs down the angle. “Lyndy, if you grab a book you can sit with me and we can read it together.”

“So Finn, any hobbies ? How do you occupy your time when you’re not working ?”

“Same as a lot of folks Lisa. Reading, playing guitar, listening to music, watching sunsets, walks, riding, hockey, I think that covers it.”

“Playing hockey or watching ?”

“These days Tim, watching, I played in high school and I was never good enough.”

Amy laughed “Ty showed up with a guitar when he got here, he was terrible. I’m not sure what happened to it. Are you better than terrible ?”

“I had a band in high school so I guess yeah, better than terrible.”

“A band ?”

“It’s how I got girls to notice me.”

“Honest answer.” Peter said “how did that work out ?”

“They got close and noticed the pimples and that I’m a lot thinner on stage.”

“You’re pretty thin and in pretty good shape from what I can see Finn.”

“Thanks Peter but I didn’t literally pound steel  until college and outside the movies I’ve never seen a fat farrier or blacksmith.”

“I guess that would do it.” Peter agreed.

“Guess it’s getting close to bedtime Lyndy, start saying goodnight.” Amy said softly.

“I can do it Amy.”

“You know Katie, how about Amy does it and you and I can take care of night check and we’ll get done together.”

“You sure Finn, you’re a guest.”

“I’m sure Amy besides, Katie and I have business to transact.”

“You do ?” She asked.

“We do ?” Katie asked.

“Yes, to both of you, nothing insidious, a straight business transaction.”

“Er, Finn ?”

“Babysitting Lou, I’m hiring her as a babysitter so I can take Amy to dinner, you know a proper date.”

“We’re all here at home nights Finn, you don’t have to do that.”

“I know Jessica but I don’t want Amy thinking about the whole imposition thing and the guilt that comes with it, if we pay Katie we’re good and you all are backup. It’s perfect actually.”

“Absolutely good.” Katie agreed.

“Finn ?”

“A week from Saturday good for you Amy ? You’ll need a dress.”

Amy looked at him for a second before answering “A week from Saturday will be fine, uh, thank you Finn, dinner would be nice.”

Finn nodded “Katie, let’s get to shoveling and negotiating, maybe we can work out a long term contract after a trial period.”

“Goodnight Finn.” Lyndy said holding out her hands.

He smiled and bent over to hug her “Goodnight sweetheart.” He whispered.

Katie leaned over and hugged her as well before rubbing noses “goodnight Lyndy bug.”

While Lyndy kissed everyone else goodnight Amy watched Finn and Katie walk towards the barn. Katie giggled as then went through the doors and disappeared.

“I’ll be back soon.” Amy said opening the screen door for Lyndy and following her inside.

They were quiet for a few minutes taking in the evening. They could barely hear Amy and Lyndy in the background.

“He’s got game, that’s for sure.” Lou said.

“I like him.” Lisa added. “He’s sweet and funny.”

“And handsome.” Lou murmured.

“He is that.” Jessica agreed.

“Ok, nobody’s perfect you know and we hardly know the guy.”

“So far he’s pretty perfect dad and you need to stay out of it.”

“I’m just saying Lou.”

“Leave it Tim, Amy’s a grown woman.”

“That’s rich coming from you Jack.”

“Well, I think it’s something we’re all going to have to accept, she doesn’t need our permission and no matter what she decides about her life and the center I’d like to think we aren’t chasing her away.”

“Thank you Jack, well said.” Lisa agreed.

Finn and Katie walked quietly over to the barn leaving the voices they could no longer make out behind them. 

“You a horsey girl Katie ?”

She laughed, “not on Amy or Georgie’s level but I do love them and I love to ride. I don’t know if horses or ranching will be my life, who knows, maybe the bug will bite.”

“Well, you’re young enough to think it through and decide. I was destined to logging and the lumber business and went another way.”

“So did my mom.”

“Amy told me about Lou, I’ve got a lot of everybody’s past I think. We’ve spent a lot of time just talking.”

“But that sounds nice, really getting to know each other.”

“I’ve never done it before honestly, gotten that close too someone.”

“Sounds like Amy’s special then.”

“Amy is definitely special Katie, so how much do you charge ?”

Amy came out onto the porch and looked around for a few seconds before putting her baby monitor on the porch rail and adjusting the sound. You could faintly hear Lyndy’s breathing.

“So you have a date, what are you going to wear ?“

“I’m not sure Lou, still trying to wrap my head around a dinner date. It’s been a while since I dressed up for a date.”

“Can’t be that different than dating Ty Amy.”

“I don’t know Grandpa, Ty and I never really did this kind of dating. I’ve never done this kind of dating. I mean adult dating with real money. Sure Maggie’s and a movie stuff but dinner out, dressed, not really, even on our honeymoon we stayed with the local cafes or cooked ourselves.”

Ty had taken her out on two fancier dates before he had proposed but both ended up being disasters. She had expected him to propose, both times and they never came. Silently she shook her head, another just all around weird time in her life. She’d call Cass in the morning and head out shopping one day this week with enough time for some alterations.

“Maybe some shopping in your future Amy.”

“Yeah, I was just thinking that Jess, I’ll call Cass in the morning. How long have they been gone ?” She said looking towards the barn.

“Not that long, they should be done soon.” Jack soothed.

“Well, it’s getting time for us to head to the loft, I have the herd first thing.” Tim said looking at Jess. “Guess that’s my cue as well.” Jessica said taking Tim’s hand and standing. “Coffee in the morning Lisa ?”

“I’ll be here.” Lisa said “Ready Jack ?”

Jack groaned a bit pushing himself up from his chair, “yeah, I’m ready to get horizontal and here comes Katie and Finn, perfect timing.”

Jessica and Tim said their goodnights at the foot of the porch steps followed by Jack and Lisa when they reached the porch. Katie moved on to say goodnight to her folks and Amy a second later and excused herself inside as well.

“Why don’t we head inside also, leave these two the porch for some alone time. I have an early flight.” Peter said, mostly to Lou. “I’m game, back to Rick and being Mayor tomorrow for me.” Lou agreed leaning over to hug and kiss Amy.

“Goodnight Amy.”

Goodnight Peter, rest well.”

Peter stopped to shake Finn’s hand and Lou smiled and gave him a hug.

“Sit for a little ?” Amy asked.

“A little, I have an early start tomorrow too.”

“What time should I expect you at the center ?”

“I assume by 1, I’ll text if I’m running late but I’m free all afternoon to help out.”

“Thanks, I assume it’ll be a bit hectic, unpacking and tours, meeting each other, setting out the rules and meeting you and the others they’ll see on a regular basis.”

“Sorry about the dinner date surprise.”

Amy smiled at him and moved her hand to his which turned and opened for hers. “It was fine, don’t worry.”

“Happy ?”

“Well yes, of course but nervous too, just a little.”

“It’s just dinner, maybe a little dancing.”

“Dancing huh ?”

“Slow dancing Amy, almost like standing still.”

She giggled “I’m not worried about dancing Finn, especially slow, Ty and I really never did that stuff.”

“You were young, dinner out is not a teenager thing.”

“We weren’t always teenagers, we got married, we were adults, I guess we always just shied away from it because it wasn’t us. I don’t know.”

“We don’t have to if you’re uncomfortable Amy, I just thought it would be nice.”

“No, no, no.” Amy said sweetly and firmly, “no backing out now, besides I get to splurge on a dress and new shoes, maybe an excuse to get my hair cut and done.”

Finn let go of Amy’s hand and slipped his arm around her back. She layq against him and raised her head for a second  to see him look back and smile then lower his head to touch his lips to hers. “I should get going.”

“I’ll walk you down.” She said

Finn grabbed his hat from where he had hung it before dinner and took Amy’s hand as they walked to the truck.

“Good night ?”

Amy smiled “no yelling at the table, no major disagreements and no punches thrown, I’d say it was good.”

Finn laughed leaning against his door holding both of her hands in front of them “is that a warning or a premonition ?”

“Hopefully neither.” She said moving closer to him. They naturally let go of their hands and his dropped to her waist. Her right hand moved up to brush a stray hair off his forehead. 

“Barber before our date I think.”

“You don’t have to do that for me.”

“I’m not, it actually gets into the way when I work.”

“Text when you get home please.”

“I will.” He said leaning over to kiss her. “I can get used to that.”

Her arms wrapped around his neck and they kissed again before she leaned her head against his chest.

“See you tomorrow Amy.”

“Good night Finn.” She said backing away from him, to give Jim room for getting in and rolling down his window.

“Sleep well.” Finn said and Amy leaned in for another quick kiss.

She held up her hand as he carefully backed away and turned. His hand shot up in a final goodbye as he pulled away.

Actually not as weird as I thought it would be was what ran through her head as she closed the door and threw the latch.

[blkofalltrade]

Dear GG,

I can't remember the last time we spoke after your passing. To this day it's still a pain to huge to swallow. Somedays I wish I can go back to your home and find you in your chair watching the same show again. I wish I would've said yes more to coming back and see you even if it was for a little bit. You were my anchor, the main drive I had for pushing even when my arms were shaking. When my legs couldn't dig deep into this harden ground anymore. I never recovered from that day. That feeling of knowing it'll be the last time I'll ever be okay. These hands don't have grip anymore. My feet have been sliding in place ever since. This pain still weighs on me. I miss you so much and writing this is opening a can that I'll never be ready to handle. Your passing will always break me. But i want you to know I made it... A semester into college as your baby boy. Pops is sick and I'm terrified he'll run into a similar fate. I wasn't as close to him but you two shared a happiness for my appearance no love from any other human will ever have. I hope I get to see you again one day.. When my time comes. I don't know if heaven is real, or if there's a God. But if he is and that place is real I know you're being taken care of beyond doubt. And if he meets me at the gates like I've been told and deny me access... I'm sorry I failed you. But I love you, I haven't found a way to cope with losing you, with that last sight I have of you. You were like a stranger to me, a shell of someone who had your voice. To remember you that way as the last time, it isn't honorable and I wish there was more. This isn't a farewell but I wanted to write to you, you'll never read this but I know you can see it.

[sweetimagines]

Heatwave - Part 1

Part 1 | Part 2

Pairing: Sweet Pea x Reader

Description: A summer night they won’t forget.

Prompt: 6. “You woke me up at 2 am for this?” + 30. “This was a terrible plan” “This was your plan” Category: Comedy

Warnings: Swearing.

Word count: 1410

A/N: For my twin’s @southsidejuggie writing challenge. I know it’s winter for most of you guys but it’s summer here, so bear with me. 

Tag: @ju-gg @lostnliterature

It’s an insufferable summer in Riverdale. Serpents hang out at the Whyte Wyrm to take advantage of the AC, but other Southsiders had the same idea, overcrowding the place. At this point, the air conditioner isn't doing anything to cool down the bar and even the beer is warm because the fridge is losing power. Meanwhile, Northsiders are siting comfortably in their icy homes drinking lemonade.

To Y/N, it seems as if it’s specially roasty at Sunnyside Trailer Park. She’s lying in bed, half naked, ceiling fan on, trying her best to fall asleep, but having the bed sheet soaking wet by her sweat isn't exactly helping. Somehow she manages to close her tired eyes and dream of an ice cold pool. Unfortunately, she doesn't get to stay in the water for much longer as there’s someone relentlessly knocking at her door. 

She checks the time on her phone (2.15 am) and gets out of bed. There’s only one person that would be there at this hour and he will not stop knocking until she gets it. Y/N slips on an Y/F/C, Harley-Davidson over-sized T-shirt with the arms cut out till the waist line before opening the door. “What took you so long?”, Sweet Pea asks and steps in. The girl just rolls her eyes and gets them two bottles form the fridge. The content is not as cold as they wish but the cooling sensation is still appreciated.

Y/N hops on the counter as Sweets drops himself on the couch. “What brings you here on this hellish night?” She expected him to be at the Wyrm with the other Serpents. “I’m boiling from the inside out.” Ironically, still wearing a leather jacket. He takes a sip from the refreshing drink. “Disadvantage of being a serpent.” She laughs before swallowing the bubbly liquid. He looks at her with a deeply confused expression. Y/N takes a moment to appreciate how adorable he looks before replying. “Snakes are cold blooded. They absorve the temperature of its soundings.” He chuckles, relating to her explanation.  

“I've got a plan to fix that.” Sweet Pea looks devilish. “If you say we should take our clothes off and have a cold shower I WILL punch you!” A part of her still wishing he would. “Chill.” He raises his palms in defense. “I was actually gonna say you have to get dressed for it.” SP points at her exposed skin. Y/N pulls the hem of her shirt down awkwardly. He can see her face glowing red so he has to bite the insides of his cheeks to prevent a smile. Y/N walks out to change and Sweet Pea paces in the kitchen. Half impatient to get going, half trying to stop himself from peeking into her room. 

Sweet Pea parks his beloved 1991 Harley-Davidson FXSTC in the gas station in front of Southside High. Last place Y/N thought they were heading to. “Now I understand your plan. You’re gonna make it snow.” She takes off her helmet. “What?” He kicks the stand down and waits for more context. “You coming to school willingly. It’s bound to mess with the weather.”, Y/N jokes. “HA-HA!” He turns off the bike and secures the key inside his jacket’s inside pocket.

“How do you plan on getting in?” She asks as they jump the fence to the football field. “I was hoping you’d know how to bobby pin the shit out of those locks.” He hands her the metal accessory. “Do I wanna know why you have a bobby pin in your possession?” Y/N doesn't mean to sound jealous, but something inside her was stronger than her as she works her way into the key hole. “Toni crashed with me last night, so there’s bobby pins all over my sink.” He hopes that she doesn't think he and Toni have a thing. “Voilà.” Y/N finds the strength to push envy out of her mind, after all she and Sweets are just ‘friends’. The locker room door swings open and they both walk in. “Lead the way.” 

They stop when they reach the Chemistry Lab. “A nerd kid built a portable AC. He’s off to college now and it just sits in the cabinet.”, Sweets explains the whole reason they are there, while twisting the knob a certain way to get it open without the key. “So we’re gonna steal it?” She doesn't look pleased with that. Watching Pea get arrested, again, is something she wishes she never has to witness. “We’re borrowing it...”, he remarks wittily and opens the door, motioning for her to enter. Sweet Pea places a weight in front of the door to keep it from closing.

“It’s on the top shelf...” Y/N points at the nerd kid’s science project. “So?” He knows exactly what she meant. However, he can’t help but tease. “Use your giant man powers and get it.”, she teases back. “I’m not THAT tall, you know?” He reaches for the AC and grabs it with ease. “Sure. Dale Cooper just dreams about you every night.” She knows he’ll get the reference because she made him marathon Twin Peaks last weekend. “I still don’t get that show...” SP remembers his most common reaction watching it was ‘what the fuck?’. Y/N is packing the AC inside the bag so they can transport it in the Harley. 

The weight SP put on the door to keep it from closing slips and the door closes with a bang. “FUCK!” He curses and rushes to the door trying to work the handle. “What?”, Y/N asks, hoping it’s not a janitor doing late night shift thirsty to catch some teenager misbehaving. “The door only opens from the outside... That’s why I put the thing...” Sweets punches the wood. “Please tell me you’re joking.” Y/N grabs his hand on hers and brushes his knuckles softly. She hates seeing him hurt. “Why? Would it be so bad to be stuck in a room with me?” A hint of insecurity is hidden behind his cockiness. “Besides the point.” He takes that as a no and a smirk finds it’s way on his lips. “We can get detention if teachers catch us in here.” With their track record it could be worse than that. “You’re right. This was a terrible plan.” Had it gone right maybe he would have the guts to tell her how he feels. “This was YOUR plan.” She reminds him, playfully. “At least we got air conditioning now...” He tries to find a bright side to it and the smile on Y/N’s face sure is. He messes with his phone while she plugs the AC in the outlet and immediately the cool air relaxes them.

Sweet Pea takes off his jacket and places it on the floor, lying on top of it. He doesn't say anything, just gazes at Y/N until she squeezes in, close to him. If they are stuck there, she might as well enjoy the stay. She rests her head on his chest, hearing his heart pounding. The girl wonders if it’s just because of the heat of if there’s a slight possibility he feels the same butterflies she gets seeing him. 

A few hours later, the Chem lab is at optimal temperature to survive that heatwave. The two teens are still lying next to each other. Y/N is fast asleep, making SP chuckle quietly at her few snores. He’s brushing his fingers on her hair when the door squeaks open. That wakes Y/N. She yawns and shifts on the floor, leaving Sweets missing the warmth from where their bodies were touching. “Sorry it took so long, bro. Had one too many and Tall Boy took my keys. Toni was nowhere to be seen.” Fangs leans on a table, almost falling. Sweet Pea ignores the fact that his friend is drunk as hell, because even the floor not being the most comfortable place in the world, he got to lay on it with Y/N next to him. That made his rushed decisions worth it and that lab impossible to forget.

[iviolingirl]

Numb

The past day and a half has been very stressful. Last year just before I turned 23, I found out that my GG (great grandma) was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. At first we thought it was lung cancer, (which didn't make any sense because she is not a smoker) but we now think it was probably ovarian cancer. Even though she was stage 4, she elected to begin chemotherapy treatment because she wanted more time and wasn't ready to say goodbye to all of us. She only has one daughter, but my grandma has six children, and there are 18 of us grandkids so we have quite a large family. For awhile her treatment was helping her buy more time, but of course it eventually began to take its toll on her and make her sick. So, after her doctor told us that her cancer was spreading rapidly, he advised us to discontinue treatment, set up hospice care, and enjoy the time with her we had left. He gave her an expected three to six months left. This was around the middle of October, I believe. (The time has all run together due to my emotions so I don't exactly remember the time frame.) On November 1, my GG turned 85 years old. She had already stopped her treatment, and was spending lots of time with us. We took her out to dinner for her birthday and then gave her a birthday cake. I went to visit my family for her birthday the week previous to her actual birthday, so the last week of October. I travel two and a half hours to see my parents and such since I don't live at home anymore. I moved for college. Since I work retail, I of course had to work the Black Friday sales, so I went home for thanksgiving with my boyfriend on Monday and Tuesday of last week. My GG was getting much weaker, I could tell the cancer was taking its toll on her, but she was still able to get around with her wheelchair and use the bathroom alone. She wasn't eating very much, and her voice was pretty faint, but she was still strong willed as ever. All of the women in my family most definitely got our stubbornness from her. So after thanksgiving on Monday, my boyfriend and I headed back home the following day so we could be back for work. My mom told me she would call me if GG started taking a turn for the worse. My family celebrated their thanksgiving at my moms house this past Saturday, since most of us work for the same retail company and so would be working on thanksgiving day. My family posted pictures on Facebook. In just the few days since I had last seen her, my GG looked much worse. She was either lying down or in the rocking chair constantly, and had to have help going to the bathroom since she couldn't walk anymore. I could see in the pictures that it wouldn't be much longer, but I hoped at least she had a few more weeks, and would at least make it to Christmas Day. However, this was not to be. Yesterday, I was at work. I usually keep my phone in my pocket and have it on vibrate in case someone needs to get a hold of me. I work at the service desk, so if I feel my phone go off, I usually just go to the bathroom to see what it is. But on Monday, I got asked to cover the lunch on the smoke shop register, which you can't leave unattended at all. While I was over there, I felt my phone start vibrating from a fall in my pocket, and I thought it might have been my mom calling about my GG, but I assured myself if something was wrong, she'd either keep calling me or call the store and ask for me. Neither of these happened, so I decided to just wait until my break and check my phone. About half an hour later, around 11:30 AM I got my break, checked my phone and saw it was a missed call from my mom, just like I thought. So I called her back and she told me what I had feared. GG had begun to take a turn for the worse the previous night. She was no longer eating, drinking, and was barely talking. She was in a lot of pain. I asked my mom if it was time for me to come, and she said yes. I said okay mom, I'll come. So I hung up the phone, and after having a meltdown in the middle of the front end, went and found my store manager, explained why I was leaving, and left. I went home, calmed down a bit so I could make the drive, threw a bag together, put some gas in my car and got on the highway around 12:45 or 1 pm. Everybody was at my aunts house, since that's where we had GG. I got to my aunts just before 3:30 and went inside to find all of my aunts and uncles, my mom and my grandma, plus most of my cousins (the ones that weren't at school). GG was on the couch with her oxygen cannula in her nose, with her legs twitching due to her restless legs. She was somewhat able to communicate still, and she was able to recognize that we were there and tell us she loved us, although it was mostly mumbling. She was being given several different medicines to keep her as calm and comfortable as we could. She was starting to get bed sores. I sat with her and held her hand, told her I loved her and I came to see her. Later that evening, we made the decision to move her into the hospital bed my aunt had rented and set up in the living room. My mom, my brothers and I headed back to my moms house around maybe 9pm, I needed to do some laundry and my brothers both had school in the morning. I had barely eaten much that day due to my anxiety making mg stomach so upset, but I decided I was up to getting something so I put some shoes on, grabbed my purse and headed upstairs. At this exact moment, Braeden (my 16 year old brother) told me that mom was going back to Cathy's (my aunts house.) I asked what was happening, mom said she was having trouble breathing and the morpheme may have been upsetting her stomach. So we jumped in the car, leaving Braeden to stay with my younger brother since he was in bed. We got back to my aunts house, and GGs breathing was much more labored. We eventually got her comfortable again by giving her more medicine and lying her flat on her back. Then for a couple hours, it was a cycle of her sleeping and then waking back up when her medicine wore off, then us giving her more medicine. At this point, we really thought that she would be going soon, so all of us started to say our goodbyes and told her we loved her. I was at her bedside with my mom and my grandma, four generations all together. My mother tearfully asked my grandma if anyone had told her it was okay to go, and grandma said she had. I decided to tell her myself. I got down and whispered in her ear that it was okay for her to go now, that we loved her, and it was going to be okay. I really thought she was going to leave us last night, but true to my GGs stubbornness, she stayed with us. My mom and I eventually left my aunts house after 1 am, and went back home after stopping for me to get a snack because I was very hungry. I went home, ate my snack, and went to bed around 230. I actually didn't sleep too bad once I fell asleep. I woke up shortly after seven this morning to my mom calling me to say she was taking my younger brother to school and then was going back to GG. I told her I would take a shower and then head out there myself. So I got up, showered and left. When I got to my aunts house, Around maybe 830-9 am, my GGs breathing was much more raspy due to all the fluid in her lungs. She was no longer responsive to us and her breathing was beginning to slow down. She was beginning to turn grey around the mouth. We were giving her medicine hourly to keep her comfortable. Due to her no longer being able to swallow, her saliva was building up in her mouth so my aunts would suction it out with a syringe every so often. Throughout the day, her breathing began slowing down even more and she was taking more time in between her breaths. Around 6pm I decided that I was most likely going to spend the night at my aunts because we all pretty much knew she would pass sometime with the next day. I ran back to my moms to grab a few things, and my computer just so I had something to keep me occupied and my mind busy. When I got back, dinner was about ready and they had stared making the younger kids plates since they made them something different. So just after 7pm, I sandwiched myself between my grandma and one of my aunts in the corner of the couch I'd been sitting in all day, and we started eating dinner. 7:12 PM. I had a forkful of food on its way to my mouth. All of a sudden, everyone jumped up. Although I didn't hear it, two of my aunts heard the machine noise that meant GG had stopped breathing. She had left us. We threw our plates aside and rushed to her bedside. My poor grandmother was leaned over her saying "oh, mama" over and over and over. I just leaned over her and rubbed her back, saying it's okay and GG isn't in any more pain. We all told GG we loved her and all us adults were at her side as she left us. We cried and told her we loved her and held her and stroked her hair and leaned on each other as the moment we all dreaded had finally arrived. Someone called the hospice nurse, and eventually the funeral home came to take her. I had notified some people close to me shortly after she passed, but other than that I had not left her side. The only person I was unable to get a hold of was my boyfriend, because unbeknownst to me his phone was dead and he was making the drive from his parents house back to where we live. My aunt had her hand under GGs chin because she didn't want her mouth to be stuck open. Eventually her hand got sore, so I took over. I don't really know how long I stood there with my hand under her chin, telling her I loved her, how strong she was, and crying with my family as we all said our goodbyes. Eventually the people from the funeral home arrived and it was time to take her away. I was still standing at her bedside holding her chin so her mouth would be closed. My Grandma came up to say her final goodbyes, and my aunts all comforted her and told her she wasn't in any more pain, she was okay, her family was taking care of her now, she was listening to Elvis. She had such a wonderful life. My mother had paperwork to sign since she is my GGs medical power of attorney, but when she was done I reached out for her. My mother, my grandma and I leaned over my GG and I said that we had all four generations together. I still had my hand under GGs chin. At this point, my boyfriend returned my phone call. With my hand still on GG, I picked up the phone and told him that GG had died and that I was still holding her, but now I had to let go so they could take her. My mom and my aunt were telling me it was okay, and I let her go and went outside to cry on the phone to my boyfriend. After I was done, I went inside to give GG one last kiss before the funeral home took her away. And the she was gone. We will meet tomorrow morning to make funeral arrangements. I am in so much emotional pain. I am exhausted. The past day and a half has been such a blur. I have never watched someone die before. But I am so glad I got to be by her side and she passed peacefully, surrounded by her family. I am emotionally numb. The next few days will be difficult. RIP GG. I love you so much.